House Warming

I have been at my house for days

on days

and all I want to do is go home

not to my parents

but to myself

i don’t know who i am

where i am

when do i get to meet me

does the constant droning ever stop

the days are hot and cold and hot and cold and hot and cold

at night my blanket is never fully on me

i wake from dreaming and nightmares

i feel the space between who i am and who I am

two of the same

never one

never in the same space

always separated by something

by what

how

why

“just be yourself” who am i who am I how help me help me, me

help me be me

i don’t want the world

I want comfort

to know

to feel

to be

who i am I

i don’t want to give up

I don’t know how to give up

where am i

when can i I

I can’t i don’t want i I fear

i don’t know how to go home

all I want is to be home

to feel at home

i don’t want to pretend

why do I pretend

i don’t know how to stop

somm eone helpu

help

help Help

Help

Help me

I can’t Help me.

take me home .